The Giant Bird's Beak..

my sight withdrew.. i felt my body being pushed or shaken rather very vigourously.. the sound of some cries reduced and became a nil.. i regained my vision, but somehow was finding things to be too silent..

my kith and kin were shaken.. i could see them lament over my body.. i felt myself to be flying away from them, though my body remained laid there.. i tried getting back near my body, but i felt like getting pulled away.. when i turned back to see who or what was pulling me, i saw i was about to hit the ceiling.. i closed my 'eyes'.. an instant later i found myself way above my building where i stayed..

i saw some people with me.. but could not clearly make out their faces.. or could only roughly see an outline with some orange and white coloured figures..

i heard them speak something to me, and was surprised how i am able to hear.. they read my 'mind' and one of them told me "when you generally dream during your sleep, how did you hear to the conversation in your dreams? similar is the case here..". Seeing me puzzled, it went on to further tell me "this is the Astral Plane.. not in the physical plane which you think it is.. "

there was a clear unease happening in me.. immediately a huge bird came in front of us and greeted the others and immediately picked me with its beak and started flying.. i tried freeing myself only to realise that i did not how to "fight it out" , and got to terms that i am not at a physical level.. also it gave me a strength that i am not going to be eaten away by that giant bird..

i was chucked away into some other location, somewhat hazy again.. i could not construe anything around again.. there seemed darknes.. i could not even feel myself.. i could clearly understand that this is something unimagined of.. i was worried whether this was some eternal trap.. and felt like crying only to realise i cant..

"Son.."- came a voice.. i clearly could see nothing.. a small streak of light made its way in.. constantly changing from white to orange to green and back to orange, the voice spoke further.. "fear not.. u are in no trap.."

"oh.. im seriously glad i could find someone.. who or what are you ? "- i asked, ofcourse with a fear whether i will lose this "new-found-friend.."

"i am your oldest friend.. in fact by asking who i am, you are asking who you are.. i am you.."- said the voice.

i immediately realised i was getting an answer from the voice each time i just "think", though i dont blurt it out..

"ok, then who am i.. i dont even know who i am and what i do.." - i told rather helplessly understanding i am having no physical form to be identified with..

"i told u right, u r me..".

"im pretty confused here.. whats happening.. i cant comprehend.." - i despaired.

" u knw finite automata right.. u could comprehend it.. its as simple as that.. your state has now changed.."
i suddenly felt an energy in me and i felt happy, some strange feeling.. i was all 'smiles'..

i told myself "wow, i have the capacity to understand a lot.." and immediately a sunken feeling set in..

"your ego gives u tihs sunken feeling.. give up thinking about urself.."

"how do i do that ? " immediately i noticed i am able to see some face in that light-energy-figure..

The voice responded to my puzzled look, "these are characterstic changes.. even you look the same to me as what i look to you..".

i was impatient and asked "what am i to do here "

"u are energy.. and i am the source of energy.. many such energies have already merged together and thats what u see me as.. now u may merge in me if u wish,,"

"WISH? in case i dont want to ?"
The voice told "hmm.. i give u a choice.. u can go back to your physical body.. but u will have to come back to me later, which is unavoidable.."

"oh i have to come back ? "- thus i could not decide..

"you may go back.. ensure u r of help to all.. i will call u back to me later.."

The light intensity reduced slowly.. and then got fully diminished..

i felt being carried away..

i could suddenly spot my building.. my mind shouted "wow, back to physical plane.."

I could now see the giant bird which was carrying me in its beak.. it threw me from above the building..

It told me "your dream is over for today.. go back to the physical plane.. adieu.."

i got up with thud.. tension clearly writ.. saw SAI's Pic on the wall, and told "phew, thanks!"
Swami from the Pic smiled back , i felt..

MOM called out to me "anand... coffee ??"

"mummyyy"- i shouted and ran towards her.. a sigh of relief..!!!

MY FIRST DARSHAN!! :) :) :)

SAIRAM

I have always felt very special , thanks to Swami. Until a point in life, i was kind of agnostic, when all of a sudden, in 2002, BABA made me realise HIS Divinity in the Shirdi Avatar to a great extent, thanks to HIS Will. There are loads and loads of Leelas, which the Shirdi Avatar has been Blessing me with :) Shirdi BABA's terrific Leelas in getting me a seat at NIT Nagpur for B.Tech is the greatest example i can quote to illustrate the veracity of HIS Word! It is a huge episode which started with putting a chit to BABA to choose between colleges, and how BABA never allowed me to choose a college aprt from HIS Choice!! I hope to write this in detail later :) My family has always believed in Shirdi BABA, but Swami has not Blessed the others to know about HIS Divinity ! However, now, my mom is entirely convinced of Swami, and i am glad it is better late than never.

It was only after i left Bangalore in 2005 to do my engineering at NIT Nagpur, that Swami slowly made me realise HIS Divinity(until then i only knew of Shirdi BABA).

2005 was the first time i consciously read somewhere, that Swami was a re-incarnation of ShirdiBABA. However i was kind of ignorant, and was running certain doubts in my mind! There was a point in time, when BABA Blessed me in slowly accepting Swami as Shirdi BABA HIMSELF. Then a question raised in my mind, which was lingering for a few days in 2007- "In case Swami is a re-incarnation, Whom of the Two should i follow/respect/worship First ?" On the Gurupoornima night of 2007, Swami first came in my Dream and there was Shirdi BABA too ! Swami told me to worship Shirdi BABA first and then worship HIM(Swami). In a way, i would like to call it as Shirdi BABA "introducing" Swami to me! :)
This convinced me that They are verily the same!

Then slowly i started realising a few SAILENT Works that Swami did. When i went home for my semester holidays later, i realised there were a bunch of Swami's Pocket-Size pics in some corner in some unused wardrobe!! BUT NOBODY in my family as yet beleived in Swami to buy HIS Pics!! A few days later i realised my wallet had another of Swami's Pic. I realised that i kept it in my wallet years ago just like that "ignorantly" !! When i had thought earlier that i should not keep any other photo apart from ShirdiBABA, there was a vehement force acting on me which disallowed me to remove Swami's photo from my wallet !

Once, i realised Swami is GOD, the next thing that was in my mind is- "what is inside Swami's Robe?" I even as yet keep wondering whether HE has a Body at all or is it made of some Light/ or energy, etc! I would wonder if HE ever sleeps at all, what would HE be doing in HIS Room, etc etc etc!!
Somehow, i still dont find a single difference between HIS Physical Form and Subtle Form, for according to what BABA makes me believe Both Subtle and Physical Forms are verily the same!

Later, immediately after 4 years of B.Tech outside Bangalore, SwamiWilling i got a job in Pune.
Hence, i have never been to Puttaparthi till date.. Though Swami has come many number of times to Bangalore (while i was in my childhood and teenage), yet, i being a Bangalorean myself, have never been to Brindavan Ashram, for i never "knew" HIM ! Strange Indeed are our LORD's Ways! :)


Slowly and steadily increasing was(is) Swami increasing HIS Dream-Appearances :) There were many wonderful Dreams, however, there is atleast One, i cannot afford to ignore from mentioning here.

When i joined my job immediately in 2009 in Pune, that Year saw Swami come to Hadshi in Pune to inaugrate Panduranga Kshetra. Months before this, Swami came in my Dream and helped me understand that i would have a Darshan(my FIRST ever !!) of HIM, where HE would inaugrate a temple. Needless to explain, it was Hadshi verily in my Dream !! However, this Dream came at a time, when one had no idea about our Beloved Swami's Visit to Pune !

BHAGAWAN FINALLY GRANTED ME A DARSHAN !! :)
I must mention that a 'stranger' then, Revathi Ramachandran, had invited me( a stranger) to her home the previous day so that we all could go to see Swami the next day. She also gave me a VIP PASS so that i could a cooool super BLISSFULL VIEW of SWAMI !!
When i entered Hadshi Darshan Area, the Sevadal ppl guided me to the VIP seat area. Swami was already sitting there in the Stage, and i was feeling sure that Swami is seeing me(though from a distance). I put my head down, but tried sneakingly seeing from the top of my eye, if Swami was still seeing me. hehe! And the evening Darshan that followed with a Discourse was the greatest time of my life i have ever experienced !!

I seriously don't know how HE worked in my case, but HE has been and is making me feel very special, for it was entirely HIS Mercy and Grace, that made me Love Shirdi Avatar, followed by HIS Current Avatar. The amount of craze-Bliss the Two Avatars are giving me makes me question if im ever worth That much !!

The amount of transformation HE has taken me through, probably, is an unmatchable quantity, which a person like my mom is totally astonished about ! Be it at workplace, home and anywhere else, HIS Leelas are so clearly seen that a smile, which i was so averse to years back, is by HIS Will even clearly seen during my sleep too !

There has not been a single day Swami makes me feel alone. HE has always kept me on HIS Lap :) and made me realise nobody can take better care of me than HIM, for HE ensures every single tiny thing is set right so that this kid can always enjoy Bliss everywhere! jay SAIRAM!