the Orange Darshan

Date : 28th October 2009

"What to wear ? "
"hmm.. quite a few shirts are there"

"dhoti??"
"hmm.. ya.."

"ya! thats the best way i feel i want to"
"and then ? our favourite green shirt?"

"hmm.. no im wearing it now.. but for tomorrow.. hey! how about the kurta?"
"super!"

It was already close to 550PM. The shuttle (of my first company Avaya in Pune) from Magarpatta City to the city would leave by 6PM. I thus, took one extra set of clothes and made way to the shuttle stop. Thankfully there was no important work in the office, so i could leave early.

The bus started. My 1 day old 'new friend' had invited me home so that we could go to Hadshi together. Baba had arrived that day to Hadshi village enroute Pune.

I was extremely excited already and a couple of incidents that day at my friend's home took me to an entirely different level of existence.

First:
The agenda of BABA's Visit was to inaugurate the magnificent Panduranga Kshetra built by the famous industrialist "Shivaji Jadhav". Right from 2003, the latter patiently waited and prayed to BABA to inaugurate the temple. However, Swami had only decided to inaugurate at this point of time.
On introspection, i realised that "i too was considered in HIS Plan" of His visit. Had HE come over even a few months earlier for this visit, i would not have fitted into this Blissful Scheme of the events!

Swami says that HE is like an engine that waits for a number of carriages to be attached so that HE can pull all of them together at one go! But why me ? What a great fortune has been bestowed on this pretty ordinary soul ?

Second:
My friend had one VIP Pass, which would allow one to take a closer Darshan. The entire family did not take the VIP pass and straightly passed it on to me! I was thrilled further!

Third:
My friend gave me a drop of the nectar that continuously flows in an Ashram at Mysore. It was materialized by Swami.

Fourth:
There was one Dream i got in the night, which practically looked very real to me. I saw that Swami showed me that HE was present in the lifesize picture of HIM that was in the hall.

Date : 29 October 2009



The next day, my friend and i left for Hadshi village, about 60kms away from Pune.

As the taxi reached the foothills of the hillock, where the Panduranga Kshetra Mandir was built, i started recalling the place slowly and steadily.

I got a SHOCKER of my LIFE!

45 Days prior to this, when no one knew of this visit of Swami, Swami showed me in my Dream that this is the path i would be taking to see HIM. Further to this, in that Dream, HE had even acted as a priest to "Lord Panduranga", which is what exactly happened here in reality!

Thus, the last 12 hours were unimaginably crazy!

Now, the TIME arrived!

As the car reached the hillock's top, my heart started beating harder. This was my first visit to see Swami. I was unable to comprehend that 'I am physically in the radius of GOD' and was very excited! What a proximity to cherish!

As i walked in, the SevaDal led me to the VIP seats' area. I was in a white (slightly creamish coloured) kurta. I also had worn a Dhoti. I sat down on one of those seats.

I was fortunate to see Swami from a close distance. After a while, Swami decided to go to HIS Residence. I still recall those beautiful moments when Swami was taken in a make-shift lift that was very near from the place where i was sitting.
Every moment looked so beautiful and i felt that each moment was running fast.

HE was to come back in the evening where HE had planned to give us a Discourse. The evening session was extremely touchy! The way HE made HIS Entry like an awesome HERO, and with high pitched yet pleasant Vedam chantings being sung by HIS Students and other Devotees put me in extreme Bliss.

My mind finally agreed, "this is how GOD must be, and this is the way I wanted HIM to be!"

Suddenly a very unusual thing happened to me, where i started weeping profusely. I was unable to take the Divinity in front of me, perhaps! The beautiful bhajans that were sung in HIS Presence still remain my heart-favourites!

Those precious moments.. The real moments in an otherwise transient world.. these would remain etched in my hearts for eternity by HIS Grace!

Now, Swami is not seen in HIS Physical Presence.
I was always interested to know if i would have seen Shirdi BABA in one of my previous lives? or seen Krishna in one?
But.. now they all seem to have satisfied and answered by this beautiful Orange Darshan!

4 Chapathis for my friend, ma!

"Anand! its already 11pm da.. "
"yes ma.. my friend is just coming.. just 2-3 minutes.. he is near B'lore Central.. just 2mins"

Rightly so, in about 2 minutes, the bell rang. Mom opened the door, and she seemed to complain to herself mentally that her eyes are deceiving her. She tried to rub her eyes and re-focus her sight on to the 'visitor'!

And then.. a beautiful smile with a huge shock.. probably like a rainbow during the rains! Yes, a very rare expression on her face!

She asked me " so you are the 'visitor' you were talking about ? " while gently patting me a couple of times with love!

"Shocked as well as surprised that you came", she told me.

Exactly 24 hours earlier to this, I was dillydallying the decision whether to go home or not!
My left "mind" questioning me  whether spending a solid 13k for travel for just about 5 days at home was worth, and simultaneously my RIGHT "mind" telling me to do just the RIGHT thing! Ya, it suddenly put a huge list of advantages that this journey would gift me with! Right from getting my speakers and camera, to eating home food, to car driving, and getting some food stuffed back to hostel : everything suddenly seemed to suggest me that i have no alternate but to travel!

With an act of "detachment" i asked my left mind to be 'LEFT back'!

Thus, it took a final 2-3AM in the morning for me to book tickets!

Now my left "mind" wanted to become a bit 'right' so that it does not get 'left' out! It suggested me to carry out a small prank on my mom!

"How about throwing a surprise to her ?" - asked my left mind.
"Good idea Mr. Left Mind!", said the right mind, rather sarcastically, and which continued " But! Dont you see there's a big flaw in your foolish idea!?? "
" Uh ?"
"We can't control our hunger and we will be reaching at 11PM+, and you want amma to cook something for you then, when she should actually be hitting the bed!?? "

I interceded the 'divided minds' and assured that i would take care, thanking them for their inputs!
Next day morning, mom as usual calls up, and after getting to know that i have holidays, said, " had you known you had some 4-5 days of leave earlier, you could have booked your tickets to home.. anyway, no problems..".

The trio(the left mind, the right mind, and i) chuckled with pride in the super-surprise that was to be delivered to my mom!

"ya mom.. true that.. anyway.. "

And then my right mind poked me,  " dude, what about food ?? tell her to cook something!"
That's when i told her that " Ma, my friend is coming to our home.. please cook a bit extra for that guy, of whatever you cook!"

My mom told " ok i am gonna make chapathis for the night, as its 'Sravanam' day".
"arrghh! chapathis :/ " - retorted my right mind silently.

"Ya sure ma.. anything would do.. make 4 Chapathis for my friend, ma!"

My mom suddenly seemed to start do some CBI work and started asking "my friend's" name and phone number. I convinced her that I would give it to her in the night and told her that "he would reach only by 11PM".

Thus ended the drama's prerequisite!

I ensured not to tell anyone of my visit to make it entirely a big surprise! The following days, my relatives called me up congratulating me of my plans to trounce my mom's boredom of the previous days, when virtually no one was at home with her!

Surely, she would be charged on for a few more days with this surprise package! :)

my first bite.. at Indore..

The Day arrived.. July 3rd.. it was time to leave to IIM Indore.. Lot of thoughts - should i have continued in technical lines or should i leap into management lines that i have no exposure to! Last morning, that is, July 2nd, i had got up from my sleep contemplating whether i must get back to Cisco and forget all about this IIM stuff.. one of those very rare days, where sleep seemed to be a remedy for reality.. Now, back to 3rd July, i knew i had to leave home to Indore in a couple of hours.. A lot of my peers from Bangalore took the 6:30AM flight to Indore.. i took the 12PM one but that had no one accompanying me.. There was a connecting flight at Mumbai that i had to take to reach Indore.

It was, in fact, Guru Poornima day.. I was unable to go to Shirdi Baba's Temple near my house on this very auspicious day.. however, with a few tears, and as though i forgot that i was away from my family for about 5-6 years already before Cisco and that this was no big deal to me, i was a bit upset leaving Bangalore..

Somehow the day went by, with my reaching Indore airport by 830PM.. Some fellow students in the same flight (in the connecting flight), who were to join IIM Indore as me, went along with me in a cab to the college.. These guys became my neighbours at hostel for the next 2 years..

On the way to IIM, the car came to a sudden halt, midway.. i was wondering whether someone wanted a drop.. it was well past 930PM, and it was dark.. The roads seemed quite empty.. A stranger tapped on the window.. On sliding down the window, the person passed on some "sabudana khichdi" in a leaf-cup.. he further mentioned that this was "Shirdi Baba Mandir Prasad" !

my mind came to a sudden halt.. i was hungry.. and more hungry for some strength.. and was not at peace basically..

this incident put them all to rest at one go! a master stroke, as HE always does..

now the strength flowed into me.. Peace reigned in.. GuruPoornima Prasadam reached me!.. and most importantly, the message that Sai Satcharita conveys, "food offered is a sign of success!, hence accept it with humility..", continuously rang in me.. i realised it was Baba's Sign of Blessing before my joining IIM.. thus, it took a few kilometers of the cab drive for me to comprehend what actually happened.. i was reminded of Swami's Words which were close to "I wait to act like a train engine, where a lot of bogies will be pushed at one go.. "

and hasn't HE kept up HIS Promise, as always.. that "I Will be ahead of my devotee, waiting for him, wherever he goes!" :)

The Giant Bird's Beak..

my sight withdrew.. i felt my body being pushed or shaken rather very vigourously.. the sound of some cries reduced and became a nil.. i regained my vision, but somehow was finding things to be too silent..

my kith and kin were shaken.. i could see them lament over what looked like my physical frame.. i felt myself to be flying away from them, though my physical frame remained laid there.. i tried getting back near my body, but i felt like getting pulled away.. when i turned back to see who or what was pulling me, i saw i was about to hit the ceiling.. i closed my 'eyes'.. an instant later i found myself way above my building where i stayed..

i saw some people with me.. but could not clearly make out their faces.. or could only roughly see an outline with some orange and white coloured figures..

i heard them speak something to me, and was surprised how i am able to hear.. they read my 'mind' and one of them told me "when you generally dream during your sleep, how did you hear to the conversation in your dreams? similar is the case here..". Seeing me puzzled, it went on to further tell me "this is the Astral Plane.. not the physical plane which you think it is.. "

there was a clear unease happening in me.. immediately a huge bird came in front of us and greeted the others and immediately picked me with its beak and started flying.. i tried freeing myself only to realise that i did not how to "fight it out" , and got to terms that i am not at a physical level.. also it gave me a strength that i am not going to be eaten away by that giant bird..

i was chucked away into some other location, somewhat hazy again.. i could not construe anything around again.. there seemed darknes.. i could not even feel myself.. i could clearly understand that this is something unimagined of.. i was worried whether this was some eternal trap.. and felt like crying only to realise i cant..

"Son.."- came a voice.. i clearly could see nothing.. a small streak of light made its way in.. constantly changing from white to orange to green and back to orange, the voice spoke further.. "fear not.. u are in no trap.."

"oh.. im seriously glad i could find someone.. who or what are you ? "- i asked, ofcourse with a fear whether i will lose this "new-found-friend.."

"i am your oldest friend.. in fact by asking who i am, you are asking who you are.. i am you.."- said the voice.

i immediately realised i was getting an answer from the voice each time i just "think", though i don't blurt it out.. it was more like a telepathic conversation? interesting!

"ok, then who am i exactly.. i dont even know what i have to do now.." - i told rather helplessly understanding i am having no physical form to be identified with..

"i told u right, u are me..".

"i'm pretty confused here.. what's happening.. i cant comprehend.." - i despaired.

" u know finite automata right.. u could comprehend it.. its as simple as that.. your state has now changed.."
i suddenly felt an energy in me and i felt happy, some strange feeling.. i was all 'smiles'..

i told myself "wow, i have the capacity to understand a lot.." and immediately a sunken feeling set in..

"your ego gives u this sunken feeling.. give up thinking about urself.."

"how do i do that ? " immediately i noticed i am able to see some face in that light-energy-figure..

The voice responded to my puzzled look, "these are characteristic changes.. even you look the same to me as what i look to you..".

i was impatient and asked "what am i to do here "

"u are energy.. and i am the source of energy.. many such energies have already merged together and that's what u see me as.. now u may merge in me if u wish,,"

"WISH? in case i dont want to ?"
The voice told "hmm.. i give u a choice.. u can go back to your physical body.. but u will have to come back to me later, which is unavoidable.."

"oh i have to come back ? "- thus i could not decide at first..

i decisively told "i have some desires left.. "  

"you may go back.. while u realise your desires and goals, ensure u are of help to all.. i will call u back to me later.."

The light intensity reduced slowly.. and then got fully diminished..

i again felt being carried away.. 

i could suddenly spot my building.. my mind shouted "wow, back to physical plane.."

I could now see the giant bird which was carrying me in its beak.. it threw me from above the building..

It told me "your dream is over for today.. go back to the physical plane.. adieu.."

i got up with thud.. tension clearly writ.. saw SAI's Pic on the wall, and told "phew, thanks!"
Swami from the Pic smiled back , i felt..

MOM called out to me "anand... coffee ??"

"mummyyy"- i shouted and ran towards her.. a sigh of relief..!!! So, was it a Dreamyy dream?!! :)

the chit that took me to Hadshi !! :)

Dear Friends,
Let us understand that a true Knowlege-Seeker won't be prevented by anything, even Science.
A true Knowkedge-Seeker would want to accept the challenge of understanding how things happen, however unbelievable, rather than blindly say"it can't happen!!". :)
may Knowledge Grow!! :)
By sharing this message to my friends, i start off to run through the post.
(this is not meant to hurt anyone in anyway. Cheers!!! )


I wept from the bottom of my heart. It was tears of ecstacy. I had never thought this beautiful Day, the Divine Thurdsay (29-OCT-09), would have come so quickly.

The LORD, my beautiful LORD, who leaves millions of us in BLISS finally made way to the temple stage for a discourse.
HIS entry was grand, amazing, and beyond words to explain.

The Vinayaka Sthothram that that was sung as a sign of welcoming our beloved Swami carried a Great Energy, and it went on to raise my awareness that the ENERGY is nearing me. :)

Drumbeats, Trumpets, and all the grand instruments used elated me that my HERO is making HIS Entry. Feel it to know what i am trying to convey. :)

Lots of crowd around HIM, i have not yet caught HIS Glimpse this evening, the crowd was running towards the dias with BABA among them. The Energy in me rose touched its pinnacle, and lo!! the LORD with HIS Divine Smile makes way. The beautiful saffron Robe was the first
Thing i noticed.

"victory to SAI" filled the air.

Bhajans that followed filled my heart, not with silence, but Peace, or something even purer!! Yes.. it was Ananda!! BLISS!! Even the minutest of doubts got cleared seeing the LORD.

"I ART THOU" - said my soul!! YES, for once i am my Atma. :)

Tears of Joy flowed down strongly. This is my Destination, i felt.

MY mind thanked Revathi for giving me a vip-pass, which hence brought me so close to Swami.
Swami's Discourse followed. What an Orator, but obvious!! The LORDmade Geetha simple to our ears.


Earlier in the morning, I saw BABA at the same distance, but this time, BABA was there earlier, and clearly showed me signs that HE did see me enter. Each time i doubted, i got an acknowledgement. HE takes it as a challenge to solve my doubts, and convinces me comfortably. :)

I being a fool, how did i deserve HIS Great Darshan!!
My mind reeled back to my past.
How did i come here??
What pulled me here??

"Revathi gave me a vip-pass, n i came.."

How did Revathi know me?
"2 days before this, she became my friend through orkut, and since she too was in pune, hence i could take her help."
(Revathi never cared i was a stranger. Her family invited me to their home the previous day, so that we could leave together early in the morning, next day. BABA took care about my reaching her home with the most comfortable of ways, and with ZERO rupees travel!!)

OH!! How come u went to Pune?
"Avaya.. job!!"

Oh!! how the job??
"Campus recruitment from NIT Nagpur.. it is a huge story to explain

how BABA made my interview finish in 10 mins!!" :)

Accha!! How the NIT Nagpur??
"ohh!! that i put a chit in front of BABA(in a temple in Bangalore) to choose between NIT Nagpur, and RVCE, B'lore".

Great!! So had the chit been RVCE, Bangalore, ..??
" NOOOO!! how could i have met my Lord here in Hadshi Village, 50kms from Pune today. I once had a dream where BABA assured me that the chit was chosen according to HIS Wish and for my Welfare."

Oh,come-on, u could have met Swami somewhere else, right??
" NO CHANCE!! I was in Bangalore , from childhood. Yet, i could not go to HIS Ashram even once in Bangalore(where HE stays in Summers) and Puttaparthi(150kms from Bangalore). Why that, HE never allowed me to have Faith in HIM then! :(

Here i need to mention the greatest miracle for me. BABA came in my dreams 2 months back , when then, this Hadshi visit of His was never even known to anyone. In the Vision, HE makes me realise that i would first see HIM in a place similar to Hadshi, and the details were similar."
( I here wish to avoid a lengthy and detailed explanation.)

Now, back to Hadshi village. Swami finished HIS beautiful and punchy Discourse. A point HE made in between, made me whistle for HIM, which i wanted to from long. :)

Earlier He had materialised a Golden Ring for a devotee. I was lucky and fortunate enough to have witnessed that Miracle. :)

Then Bhagawan accepted Arathi, and made HIS Way back to HIS Residence. And similar to the entry, the exit was awesome.

The next day(friday) at office, i was restless.
"what was happening in Hadshi..?" - I wondered.
Another friend of mine, Shweta, gave me a gist of the day, which ended up making me restless to have missed HIM.
I felt bad i could not make it to Hadshi, as i was worried if that would leave a bad impression at office, that i bunk a lot!! :D

Thus, HE made me long for HIM that day.
This longing, which i got, HISWILLING, made me decide that i will make it to Mumbai for HIS Darshan there.

" OK, it is friday night now!! NExt evening, BABA is giving Darshan in Goregaon, in Mumbai. How do i go?? Where do i stay? "- puzzled my mind.

I called up Rohit Sahare and told him i am staying at his place for the weekend, without even asking if he is ok with it or not!! :D

Later, next morning, on reaching rohit's place did i understand, that my BABA will come to a Hall in Goregaon which is hardly a 10-minute walk from rohit's place. I didn't know Rohit stayed near Goregaon!! This itself i felt to be an acknowledgement of the feeling that BABA indeed is doing it all for me.

Next day, at Worli, in Jambooree Maidan, BABA gave another Darshan.
Here, the SevaDal did a great job by providing free biscuits, packaged water (all unlimited) to 50,000 people atleast!!

Such is the Magnet called GOD!! :)
The Mysore-Pak prasadam i had was the best in my life.(believe me!! :) )

My friends forced me to stay back for BABA's Darshan at Brabourne Stadium that evening. BABA made me to leave, as i had already booked my tickets for the evening. However, my College-mate Mohnish Chawda attended the function there. When he prayed for me, BABA showed a signal, and simultaneously i called him on his mobile. All at the same time!!
Non-believers will call it co-incidence!! LOL!! :D

Once this fool had no idea about BABA. But this one week, or the last 3 days, gave me the greatest fortune, for i had 3 Darshans of my LORD in different locations all in 3-4 days!!

Thus the Chit landed me here, in ecstasy!! or rather was it not my LORD, whose Mercy and Infinite Love brought me here!!

om SAIRAM

the stone God!!

Salutations to my Master SAIBABA!!

Let me rush through a few preliminaries to get the theme better understood.

It was during the second half of 2005. I got admitted into the Computer Science Dept in National Institute of Technology, Nagpur. A matter of great pride to all my well-wishers!!
Earlier, my Master SAI told me that i should attend the AIEEE counselling rather than take a seat at the highly fancied RV College in Bangalore, which boasts of top class placements. Besides my bro did his B.E. there in CSE. My dad was at his adamant best to get me into RV, because else my seat in RV would be forever forfeited.
SAI assured me often that "I know best what is good for u..". Also HE had promised me that HE would put me in a place where my Faith in HIM would only increase.

Now come to the central theme.
I got into this beautiful college and the first year was only about making friends around and getting ragged by seniors. Life seemed to be floating in air. People told that NIT has a great tag and can offer one a great future. Some others told that life was not easy in a NIT. To me all this was only a matter of conversation and timepass. After the exams, which i knew i had not done well (for still a 'school boy' attitude, i thought i may not get a CGPA of 8). Vacations were fun at home only for a week, because i had an uninvited guest.. viz EXAM RESULT!! It was a mere 5.9 !! Life for once forgot mercy.. i was shocked and my Faith in SAI was easily shaken..
People around i.e parents, cousins, relatives, well-wishers, etc were bogged down. Dad was convincing me that a NIT is a high level University, and that it is not easy to get a pointer. I was only worried about my dad's reaction. SAI Willing it was a clear path.

Next sem.. 2nd sem.. back to college.. i was worried about how teachers would react to my performance.. in the train i was contemplating continuously as to how others such as seniors, prefects, friends would react.. and whether i would be labeled a NULL? !!
After entering the college i realised that SAI saved me from flunking in 3 subjects!!!! two DDs and one CD. Phew! it was a close shave indeed!! i was close to becoming a discontinued student.

My roommates were preparing for the JEE again.. I too thought of doing the same, so that i could remove the blemish in my academics. I was vexed as to how would i manage another 7 huge semesters, especially in computer science which according to seniors was a low scoring branch. Now i realised SAI has put me into a trap, a vicious circle rather!!

Each time i would go to the Mechanical dept for the Engg-Drawing class, i wud see a small stone-built place of worship, which would hardly be 1 foot both in height and width (on the way to SBI bank). I earlier never considered it as a temple, thanks to my seeing massive, huge temples (whose areas in the order of hectares) in Bangalore, in TN, etc. This turned out to be the HERO of my VNIT life!

Now i see the HERO of our story beckoning onto me. I was perplexed. It was 9:10 am already, thanks to the mess workers' laze in serving masala-dosas. !
From the college canteen(Don't confuse it wit the above mention of mess), there is a sidewalk to the mech dept, via the workshop. Before turning left into the sidewalk, we get to see our HERO at a distance of about 15 metres.

Now why was HE beckoning at me? and what was HE trying to convey? I somehow felt like saluting to HIM and ran to the class. Prof.Warade asked me to come to the teacher's table. Good GOD!! I remembered i just wrote my internals the previous week. I took my eyes away from the marks, but took the sheet to my desk. It was 14/30. A terrible performance indeed!! Now my mind was upset as usual. I realised that my brains were useless and that engineering. was not my cup of tea. Even the previous night dad had encouraged me. hehe!! what was the point!!

My mind wanted to divert. It wanted to trace itself back to the hostel. I walked back to the hostel. When the sidewalk led me to the canteen, my legs didn't move. They were stuck. I saw my HERO signal again. Just then i felt a hand touch my back. I ricocheted back to class! My friend wanted to go the teacher and hence wanted me to move. I saw that the whole class was there in front of his table. I learnt that the teacher has given a grace marks of 6 for a question. I was thrilled!! Getting 20/30 may not be great, but to me seeing anything above 15marks seemed distant.
My mind was beatified. I got a satisfaction that i had never seen in the whole of 1st year so far. I was at my jovial best after a long time to my friends. While walking back to the hostel after the class, i felt my legs getting stuck again n that too at the same spot!!

I then realised.. " hey it YOU SAI!!!" I cried out, "YOU are there with me!!.. DUDE YOU are there with me!!". Now i understood that even getting a GOLD MEDAL here is not going to be tough. This one instance was enough to prove HIS all-Pervasiveness.

JEE got over. 2nd semester got over. It was results time!! It was a meagre 7.1 again; but dad was happy to see my entry into 7 from a 5. A few days later JEE results out.. and i was not selected.. (i never deserved it for my efforts were negligible..). And then i realised that i have to live with the 5.9 n 7.1 in my first year! So far, i was convincing myself that i would make it to IITs for a fresh lease of life.
Seniors in computer science dept told me that it is extremly tough to score and that teachers judge with respect to pointers in first year!! "oh SAI.. where are YOU now?? why this scary situation again?" Just then i was informed about Prof. Kakde that he excruciates the students, and flunks the students. (Contrary to this I have become a great fan.. and am ready to do anything for his class.. i pity those who haven't experienced his teaching!!)
"enoughhhhhhhhh!!", my mind shouted.
3rd sem classes started. Now while going to my comp.sci. dept via the canteen, at a perpendicular angle i could see my HERO beckoning. HE day-by-day convinced me that i am not going to fall to anything further. I would have tears in my eyes.. and would thank HIM, and carry on to/from my dept.
Now grading became relative against the 'absolute grading' which was until last year!! Soon the first sessionals approached( now, 2 tests in a day!!). After the last test, when i came out of the class, people were standing outside the dept, all checking some papers. It was Prof.Moghe's( the GodFather of our dept) paper.
I ran to his cabin. Now my heart was beating worse than an earthquake. Bhaskar was questioning Moghe Sir about the paper correction. It all looked the more tense. Moghe Sir signaled me to get in. He gave me the paper. My eyes refused to open. And then, it was a 23/20!!! yes.. 23/20!! (Moghe Sir's pattern was very interesting.. He would give questions for more marks than the alloted. So it was very encouraging to the students.). This was the first test at department level. n i topped!! wow!!! I felt like this after my 10th std results.. or perhaps more!!
Next sessionals same thing.. Moghe Sir's paper i topped.. 22/20!! hahaha!!
Final exams approached!! Other subjects turned out to have a decent internal score. However Analog Circuits seemed to scare me.. i had a 20/40. Fear engulfed me, that i might flunk!! but i knew this would not bend me to my knees anymore.. because my HERO was there guarding me!!
3rd sem results.. 8.39 !! my dad was excited about my performance!!
My HERO now told me that my Department was the House of Lordess SARAWATHI, and that SHE ever blesses all.
4th sem , 5th sem, 6th sem, 7th sem.. there was no turning back.. my HERO promised me that HE wont let me down.. n i know that HE would even chop HIS Head to stick to HIS Words..

Meanwhile i got 2 jobs. 1 at PSL and another at AVAYA. During the Avaya interview, i was praised for my "comeback" from 5.9, or as some of my wellwishers told i was a "phoenix"!!
Little do they know the truth!!

Till date, i am unable to convince anyone of the truth that the STONE GOD was the true HERO.. nobody would accept if i tell that HE wrote my exams.. that HE evaluated my papers, because even my mistakes fetched me marks!.. that HE entirely took me in HIS Shoulders..
Life would have been so dead without HIM !! But HE is always there with me..
i thank YOU, my HERO.. the STONE GOD!! my SAI!!