complicated dreammmmmmm!!

Word of Caution:
Don't be surprised if u end up not understanding anything ;) u may even feel to quit reading this post halfway itself.

TO AVOID GETTING A LOT CONFUSED:
The word "dream" i refer to can be any desire/goal.. be it career, life, whatever.. just not specific!
It will fit into anything :)


Purpose of the post: to complicate simple scripts!! ;) For this is the current trend :P


so lets start the complicated dreamm !!

" come on , make way.." - shouting all the way,

Swami ran down the stairs. Yes it is our dear old Swami, who we think was a "kid" at heart, has got even more kiddish now.

He ran down the two floors in a jiffy, leaping 3-4 steps at a shot.
What was this sudden gush of energy for?? It was quite sometime watching Swami in so much
of an enthusiasm.. i being him guessed it within a shot.. yes.. that "magic" it is which is making him go berserk ,hehe!!

Okies before i complicate things further, i am the blogging-personality of Swami.

Yeah, i am he and he is i, but.. i love to stay impartial and avoid coming into emotional contexts.

Purpose of this Personality:
i love to retrospect on incidents very impartially and comment to Swami. Thats where i am different from him!

He ran out of his office building, saw Aman coming to office there. It was 9-27AM. Dragging him outside along with him, which nonplussed Aman, Swami finally got to a halt skidding on the wet floor outside the building, thanks to Aman's resistance against Swami's pull.

"Oh wow.. it rained kya?? floors are wet man.."- Swami was all smiles proving Aman thereby that he has all the 32 teeth intact and also showing off his middlemost 2 upper teeth to have a slight dent.

Aman, pissed by all this asked with a great deal of anger and sarcasm - " u mean u did not come to office today by this building entrance, to have not noticed the rains ??"

Swami, yet in a fantasy mood, got all the more excited. HE took aman's two hands by his two and
chipped in a wonderful step of Swing Dance lasting 2-3 seconds. "am i ur girlfriend?? leave me, u ..!!" -shouted aman.

The company bus had arrived and 2-3 more friends caught up and laughed out at the crazy Swami's mood.
"kya haal hai..?? kuch chamak raha hai tere aankhon mein..!! " - said Lav.

Aman had had enough and shouted at Lav, "take this mad guy off man!! subah subah dimaag kha raha hai.."
" Bas Kya dost!! "- Swami smiled back running his fingers through Aman's dense silky hair.

Aman realising that Swami always told things first to him finally smelt that Swami wanted to
tell him something.

Swami pulls Aman from others towards a bakery, buys loads of sweets in order to distribute to
every known person in office.

"to know it rained, u should experience 'rain' " - said Swami.
"I experienced rain now, today.. and realised that it indeed has literally rained too" - he continued.

Aman turns very glad on knowing the hidden-reason of that parable Swami used which
he got to know while conversing on the way back to office from the bakery.

Aman knew how crazy Swami was, and how now he has been blessed with his desire/dream.
Swami gets to his seat after distributing sweets to his friends.

It was close to lunch time now and Swami says he is full when his usual lunch-table-group
beckoned him to the pantry.

Swami closes his eyes, trying to digest the great excitement and happiness. He felt as glad
as a farmer would feel seeing his wonderful crops about to be harvested, or as an Army
Officer who would proudly announce to the world that he won the war for the Nation, or as a
Sachin's fan who saw him get to a double-century in ODIs, or as a devotee who has witnessed an
excellent miracle of GOD.

A sudden flash of wisdom dawns him.
A few years back the very same Swami was trying to take his control over an exactly opposite situation. Yes, an exactly opposite reason.

A moment that he had forgotten, but was reminded due to the current thrill.

Rewinding a few years back..

The stage was all set. He was about to reach his then-wonderful dream he had in mind. Little
knowing that it would not materialise, as HE realised it later to have followed GOD's Will,
he was strongly behind it.

He had a few friends then. Many in number but only a few when it came to his dream
realisation. These few were harmless who whether helped or not, never atleast put him in trouble, as the rest had always done.

He was exasperated when his dream became an issue of fun or became a reason for him becoming a laughing-stock, and was taken advantage of by bullies. Swami, himself once a bully in
childhood, felt he was reaping what he had sowed.

But the anguish deep in his blood, could not be controlled easily. However GOD took care then to
avoid Swami from punishing his traitors.
An incident where Swami goes to the extent of smashing one particular chap who "played" with
his dream, making fun of it, and hence was instrumental in making it a distant-dream or
rather a to-be-forgotten-dream is worth mentioning. Somehow GOD helped Swami realise
that it was GOD's Will alone to clear Swami's dream, and that it should not materialise.

However Swami just could forget or forgive the tragedy caused thereby by the others.

Swami took a few days to get his anger healed. He got over it.
But his dream reshaped. He remained silent on this.

He took a few years to check the veracity of the existence of his dream. The dream was there consistently. But something was missing, yes.. He felt the dream was better to buried unfulfilled, which GOD had willed years ago using Swami's "friends" as instruments and hence leaving no scope of development of the dream.

But somehow this dream would not fade off..
Swami was worried, and a little concerned, as there was atleast a small speck in his heart
thinking of this dream.

"Why?? Why is it persisting?? i am no more interested in that dream.. but why is it
smashing me into pieces??" - he would ask me often.

Some instinct, which Swami sometimes terms as GOD's sense, made him understand that Swami just needs to wait.

Forwarding to the Present:

I always believe in "this too will pass by" philosophy. Maybe since i talk very less to Swami, Swami doesnt wait for my reply. Maybe he doesnt understand that he needs to turn silent
for a while to get my answers to his questions.

Never mind, he will learn to get my answers soon.

Thus leaving Swami at this point of contemplation about his past and his possible future which GOD alone will Will, i would now want to use our GOD Sense Instinct.

Rewinding back to our old plot.. :

A few years pass by with Swami's dream slowly fading. The sting is no more there, the craving
is not much felt. But when Swami assumes a future without that dream being achieved, he
feels a pain. This was the question he has been worried about throughout.

Swami asked me, " what do i do? how do i get rid of it?"

I answered back, wondering how he has learnt to listen to me, " just go.. achieve the dream.. u
dont want to live without it..".

Personally i have no interests in his achieving this dream which is complicating his life for
nothing. I tried the reverse psychology and i got what i wanted, as follows:

"no, maybe i would happier without the dream.. " - Swami.

"Why? " - I asked.

"i feel by achieving it, if at all i can, i will be at no peace. i have more aversion than inclination towards it now"

"Why?" - I repeated the same question.

"i have an aversion.. wait.. why am i having an aversion??"

Swami was perplexed. I got him thinking, to help him understand the missing link.

It took him a few days to think over why he was disinclined to the dream, which once he was crazily chasing. He retrospected in total detail and got back to me.

"i think i always was disinclined to it.."- said Swami.
I patiently heard to him.
"there was this fear that i am not supposed to have a life with such a dream executed.. a dream
as what i apparently was after.."

"hmm.."- it was getting interesting to me.

"hence i wanted to avoid this dream in my life once and for all"

"ok.. but why did u chase it? " - i asked.

"from what i understand, my sub-conscious mind plotted this plan so that i am 100% not gonna achieve this.."

"aha..!" - i exclaimed. i caught the rest of the game. His sub-conscious mind too played a
reverse psychology with him, until he totally is willed against even thinking of such a dream/desire.

Back to Present.. :

Swami gets up from his seat and goes to the pantry. He has got over the over-excitement and
he is now very content.

Now what is he content about? Why did he jump up and down today morning??

Simple!! His present dream was realised!!
hehe, don't go crazy, this dream is one beautiful desire that he wanted to achieve since long,
and this dream he got connected to by his former-disinclined-dream.

Such is life!! If you are finding some undesirable incidents continuously happening, just say yourself, " this is the path to achieve my greatest of dreams ".

Yeah, finally Swami sits with his friends in the pantry with an extreme sense of satisfaction of having achieved the greatest of goals, or dreams, known only to him.. i mean known only the dream, him and me!! :) ;)

I know the readers are not content with the connection so far.
Swami was after a dream only to realise he should not have been after the dream, but was
also chasing it in such a way that he can only distance himself away from it forever. Had his
subconscious mind let him know that it was playing a game, he would not have chased it all, thus ending up as a prey to the dream.

Why did the Subconscious mind want him to chase it still??
because Swami's actual dream was the current one which he has GodWilling attained. And the
apparent-dream was a stepping stone to achieve this!! Besides he would now understand that the achieved dream is much more precious than the apparent-dream.. infact the most precious !!

SWAMI thus is blessed with the BEST !!